A lot of times I–and I think I can probably speak for many of us when I say this– find myself asking God, “Why is this happening?” Sometimes it’s in the difficult moments when I don’t understand the challenges in front of me, when I feel confused and alone; but other times I ask “why?” when I feel blessed beyond measure. So, I guess I could say that almost all the time I do not understand why things are happening in my life. But, I try to trust the process and believe that everything will end up the way it is supposed to be. This, as we all know, proves to be a greater challenge when we are facing trials, but in my short 22 and 3/4 years of experience I’ve learned that it does pay off.
The past year has been incredible for me. When I think about all the life-changing events that have happened, I am almost overwhelmed. God has blessed me with amazing gifts, and I find myself wondering, “What did I do? Do I deserve this?” Believe it or not, after struggling a considerable amount nine months ago with making decisions about my future (i.e. job, new city, relationships, etc.), my post-graduate life has been relatively worry-free, and for that I am extremely grateful. It seems as if the big and little pieces that make up my life have fallen into place–maybe even better than I would have imagined them myself.
Trusting that good things will come, but not always on my schedule has been a process for me. I have learned so much in the past 12 months and am grateful for all the experiences that have taught me to be patient, have faith, and appreciate all that I have. Here’s to a joyful new year that brings more growth and the further realization that each day is a gift.